Note: I had written a draft of this post last week, and then heard about the “Elder Speaks” event held by the Retired Ministers Council of CSL. I could not attend that event due to my time zone, but it is another interesting “coincidence” in life.
I am at a point in my life where I see myself as intentionally in an outsider status. Looking back on my life I can see many instances where I was apart from the collective sense of whatever community I was in. In 24 years as a police officer, I was never really part of the tribal sense of “us and them” which is so prevalent in that service. I never let attachment to community or place keep me from moving away, figuratively or literally, when my inner sense said it was time to move on.
But none of that was about being an outsider or apart intentionally – it was just an expression of who I am or was. I’m sure that some psychological digging could find some way to reason about that – I was adopted – that’s a good place to start perhaps, with abandonment issues. But I am not concerned about that at this point. I am focused on who I am now, what the circumstances of my life are, and what I see as giving meaning to my life. And for me, it is meaningful to contribute to some greater good.
I am in my 70’s, in good health, with most of my mental faculties intact (memory is becoming an issue). I wear glasses most of the time for reading and some of the time for distance vision; I am on my second pair of hearing aids. I have been retired from active pulpit ministry for seven years and retired from law enforcement for 26 years. But none of that makes me an elder.
My ministry these days consists of writing this blog, the occasional book on spiritual leadership, and some coaching and consulting. So, I work part of the time, basically when I choose to. If I see myself as an elder (see Michael Meade’s quote above) it is because others have called me that. As I see the term “elder,” it is an honorific, something one does not call oneself, like “reverend.”
An elder is someone who is supposed to carry the wisdom which has emerged over a lifetime of experience. Within a community an elder carries aspects of the communal or organizational memory. Joseph Campbell wrote of the idea of seeing ourselves as the ancestors to future generations living new paradigms, new myths.
We in New Thought have now and had in the past a number of elders of great wisdom. Each has their own set of wisdom and experience; each has lived the teaching in their own way.
Since my retirement, I have been apart from the community of spiritual leaders and my CSL community after deep involvement over two decades. I live in Europe, where New Thought is barely present, only occasionally attend events or conferences, and am no longer all that interested in the organizational happenings. This sense of being apart after deep connection is, I think, a natural progression for me. Out here on the perimeter, I can selectively observe and find places to act from what I may have to offer.
My retirement was intentional, although somewhat driven by circumstances. Dorianne and I came to a mutual decision to change the direction of our lives, meaning I would have to leave my ministry in Simi Valley. It subsequently evolved into travel and then settling in France while my work became more about writing, coaching, and consulting. My intention in a more general sense was to leave while still effective and to make room for others to step in. For me, that leaving entailed departure from a concentric circle of communities. Others who retire stay as members of the communities where they have served.
I have been a change agent for most of my life. An Edgewalker (LINK) in the sense that I value being in the chaos of change processes which can lead to improvement. I prefer that to the static nature of status quo. This has kept me apart in a sense as is noted in this quote:
The path of the change agent is one of being apart, at least to some degree. You have to remain at a sufficient distance to see what needs to change and be willing to irritate those at the center who are either dependent on the status quo or who are too immersed in it to see what needs to change. Change involves discomfort; some find the discomfort of failing to change (a known) preferable to the discomfort of a change process (an unknown). When I was in law enforcement, I got transferred a lot after irritating various commanding officers. In ministry, I served in four centers and had lots of conversations with people who were disturbed by changes we were making – this was especially true during the Integration process between UCRS and RSI into CSL.
This blog, which at its heart encourages a positive attitude toward change and evolution, could not be what it is if I were still active in pulpit ministry or if I were still serving in organizational leadership. It is a view from the periphery, not from the center. You can see things from the periphery you cannot see in the center – and vice-versa. Being on the periphery as an elder feels right to me at this time. So here I am. As to where you are and where you are headed, you will need to figure that one out for yourself.
As always, your comments are welcomed and encouraged.
Copyright 2022 – Jim Lockard
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